Hah, I have a biiig mouth. I might be the first person to say that about me. Eh.

Ok well, I was just walking outside and YET AGAIN I get stuck in the rotating door. Both of my arms got pinned. So of course I start laughing, because honestly, a fatty getting stuck in a door is hilarious. Even though, the fatness isn't what got me stuck, someone didn't scan their badge correctly so it got ME instead. People were all around me and as I'm chuckling away, these people look at me like I'm a freak.

Wtf people, a fatty getting stuck in a door isn't funny??? What the hell is wrong with you?!?!

I have extremely low self-esteem today. I'm making an actual meal tonight though, so maybe if I don't fuck that up my self-esteem will get a much needed boost. *sigh*

Oh, and I am thinking about making a phone post tonight. Should I? Maybe I'll sing for ya'll.

I got my new phone! Right here: http://www.virginmobileusa.com/phones/phoneDetail.do?skuId=VM8915

It's the best/coolest phone I've had so far, and the camera is really clear! I'm content with it. :o)

My pal Bean called yesterday and insists she's found the man for me. He's 26, has a lip ring, and a daughter. That's really all I know, besides his name and I won't say it yet. She told me to take him to Megan's wedding! I'm like "Uhhh I'm not taking a guy I've never met to a close friend's wedding!!"

Not sure how I feel about dating someone with a kid right now. But it isn't like I'm just going to step in and be mom, y'know? We shall see how things progress, it's definately worth meeting him. I don't want to judge.

Payday tommorrow, hells yes. Oh and I talked to John, and he said since I am going to take multiple lessons a week plus use his space to train, he'll charge me a flat fee of 50 bucks a month. Sweet.

OH GOD!!!!

MY PAYCHECK IS GOING TO BE HUGE! HOLY SHIT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am almost crying here folks. Oh man oh man oh man! Bills are gettin' PAYED! I can't stop freaking out! I almost got up right here and did some weird touch down dance, lol!

I have no clue WHY it is going to be so big either! Maybe because my last check was short? ehhh whatever. Each bill gets a big dent this month, yes!

So, I'll just take these 2 phones back and get an even better one too. :o)

So I got my new phone right. Well this one, instead of having a broken button it just isn't getting a signal anywhere! YAY! Now I might have to go get ANOTHER phone, and program my contact list again. It's awesome when you have about 50 numbers! </sarcasm>

Why can't shit just work??!?!? Gah!

Me and Dougan might be going to Clarksville this weekend to just walk the town, checking out the little shops and such. I want to check out antique stores and just be in a tiny little town. If anyone wants to come let me know!

One of the buttons on my cell phone is broken, I've had this thing for less then 2 months. I can still make and recieve calls but I can't enter any new info in the phone or set my alarm clock on it.

So I guess I am getting a new phone tonight. I guess you can't expect much out of a 30 dollar phone. Eh.

Things get in the way
The rush of everyday
Ordinary stuff we all get into

Wouldn't it be sad
If all you ever had
Was a granite epitaph that said "I meant to."?


Man, I love that song.

Well, Mike gave me my money! So I am good until payday, woo hoo!

Andrea and Josh found a house they love, so we might be moving again REALLY soon. It's a couple miles away from where we live now. It's perfect, so keep your fingers crossed!

I'm also looking for a new job in Warrenton. :o)

Uhhhh, yeah! lol.

...

Here's a song for you guys. For some reason it's always been one of my favorites, and It's really getting me right now. Even though I don't have a love life at the moment.

Girl meets boy and girl goes crazy
Boy backs away, she gets her heart broken
No words are spoken
Boy comes back and acts as if everything is cool
Soon she's got him back upon a pedestal
She only sees what she wants to see
Love is blind, love is so misleading

Chorus:
I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober
All that you serve to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you I never knew
Now it's finally sinking in
I am sober

Girl wakes up and smells the coffee one day
Realizes she's on her own again
All alone again
Boy takes every opportunity
To play on every insecurity
Get her back on track
She's in a daze, back in the fire
But will she cave into her old desires

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober
All that you serve to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you I never knew
Now it's finally sinking in
I am sober, I am sober

She's in a daze, back in the fire
But will she cave into her old desires

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober
All that you serve to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you I never knew
Now it's finally sinking in
I am sober, I am sober

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober

My brother Tom is moving from Indiana to New Melle in 2 weeks!

This means no more free trips to Chicago.

Hey, I will gladly take him back here and not go Chicago again for a while. Especially now that my parents are gone.

Eeeeesh, I guess this is a happy and sad post.

Ok guys, I have some devestating news.

Kevin Richardson has quit the Backsteet Boys.

I'll just give you a minute to let that soak in. LOL.

Ok, ok while it is pretty laughable because they haven't been relevant for some time, I just have to say it is almost kind of upsetting. I'm sure to get a frantic call from my pal Bean today because of this. I saw them live 4 times when I was around 16, so I will go home tonight and blast some BSB in remmembrance.

Oh God I'm such a loser, hehehe.

My next tattoo???

http://www.whats-your-sign.com/images/ChineseYinYangLotus.jpg


Yin Yang Lotus Symbol.

To the Chinese it symbolizes ultimate purity and perfection because it rises untainted and beautiful from the mud. The sacred lotus combined with the balancing acting of the Yin Yang make this a perfect point of focus for the body, mind and spirit. There is also some Buddhist meaning to it as well, which is nice. Though I am Christian, I still value Buddhist teachings.

Perfect. If I get my money from Mike tommorrow like he says, then I might go ahead and get this. It should only be about 50 bucks.

The thing is though, I am tempted to get it on my wrist. I don't know if I want to have a tattoo that out in the open though. Or my ankle?

What do you guys think?? Also if anyone wants to come with me to get it done, perfect opportunity to see a tattoo process before getting one yourself so you know what to expect.

I just heard someone say "TPS Reports"...

Dear God, lol.

Anyways the game was ok last night, kinda' boring. If the superbabes went it would have ruled though. It's Friday!! YAY! I get to sleep in tommorrow...mmmmm.

I need to get my butterfly tattoo touched up. Might do that this weekend if I can, it's cheap to get a touch-up. It's odd that in the winter I barely notice it's there, even though it's on my chest.

Right now it looks pretty hot though. ;o)

Have a great day!

Welp, probably no game tonight, dammit. Atleast I have cool storms to look forward to though! lol. Eh.

So... I got a hot date tonight. With Dougan's hubby Josh, lol j/k. He got some River City Rascals tickets through work and if he doesn't use them they come out of his pay. So since Dougan has to work tonight, me and Josh are goin' to a ball game. It should be fun! I've never been to their park in O'fallon.

Uhhhh yeah, today is boring! I'm bored out of my mind. I hope it's not rediculously hot tonight. Oh well if it is!

PEACE bitch faces. lol. ;o)

Ok so I checked my weight tonight and flipped.

I am the biggest I have EVER BEEN. I CAN'T EVEN FIT IN MY GI PANTS ANYMORE!!

This is dangerous, so I promptly called John (Alex's old sensei) and guess what?

I'M TAKING TKD LESSONS!

I would go back to Jeff, but 40 dollars a month (10 dollars for an hour lesson) compared to 100 (25 per half hour) is way more affordable. I can't afford to spend 100 a month plus gas to go to Florrissant multiple times a week right now. But, I CAN afford 40 a month when it's on my way home from work in Wentzville.

YAY! I was the happiest I've ever been, plus I was getting in great shape doing Kenpo. Hopefully I can do well with TKD atleast until I can go back to Jeff. Which really, who knows, when I do I will probably take TKD and Kenpo at the same time.

YAAAAAAY! MA!

So, minus my bitching yesterday wasn't THAT bad. I hung out with Amy and Tim, we went to Fashion Bug where I found this dress to wear at Megan's wedding.

http://fashionbug.charmingshoppes.com/Shopping/product.aspx?product_id=FD001629&nav=FP

This is just a maybe dress, but it's very pretty in person. Not sure yet what I'll get. Please tell me what you think!! I also need to dye my hair and get it cut again.

My parents are moving on Sunday, so if anyone is willing to help please let me know. I don't know how much help we'll need.

Also, I think I am going to have to buy this Pussycat Dolls cd. Dammit, I am trying to resist.

Sooo Madahoochi isn't at 8pm, it's at 5:30. So I guess that's cool, I get off at 5 and I'm less than a half hour away. Plus Amy lives less than a mile away from Civic Park. I can walk. Maybe I can hear the sweet sounds of Hoochi from her patio. That would rock!!!

So, yes. Should be fun. If any of you go, I will probably be as close to the band as possible. Shouldn't be easy to miss me! :o)

Hey guys...

http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,200263,00.html

Are we gonna' die? I'm leary of Fox News but ehhhhh if this doesn't work then some bad shit could go down. Can someone help put this in perspective for me so I'm not so nervous? lol aaaagh.

Hot day outside, but it feels good. It'll be perfect for hearing Scott's guitar. I need live music. I've missed some Madahoochi. Now I just need to figure out how to get to Civic Park, lol.

Uhhhmmm, hm.

Now that I'm awake, it's a perfect day outside. I just spent a couple hours with my daddy and gave him some candy, scratchers tickets and powerball tickets. It's what he wanted, we all gave that to him. He won some on Amy's tickets! :o)

I was talking last night with Andrea and she made me realize something. It has been over a year an a half since I have met a guy who I have seriously considered dating and really liked.

Man, how the hell do you even meet guys anymore??